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contemplating suicide

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this was us.
discussing what we should do with a suicidal girl.

me: 'contemplating suicide is a lot more common than you think.'
you: 'it is?'
me: 'yes, it is.'

and then the moment slid by without further notice

this was not too strange to me
because i knew you were not depression's friend
not even depression's acquaintance.
sometimes, i doubted that you had ever met it.
[but then i remembered that you are human, and the happiest ones keep the best facades]

i knew we both had facades
yours infinitely better than mine, most of the time.
but you had no need to hide your years of being alone
you always had a new person, fresh from whatever porcelain-glass friendship they had just escaped from
who could take the title of 'bestfriend'
and take the last one's place.
[your facade had to do with the way you simply couldn't understand everything]

so maybe that's why i earned the title of being 'wise' from you.
i always seemed to understand the suicidal girl better.
sometimes i would almost become her.
[but not enough for you to notice]

should i have told you the truth--that the reason i understood her so well
was because i had contemplated suicide myself?
2.21.11
'sanity is a cosy lie.' susan sontag
note to my friends--i'm not suicidal. don't worry about me.

critique for the written revolution---> [link]
question--is the beginning awkwardly worded? i wasn't quite sure how to start off this one...
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PoetryintheMaking95's avatar
I like the way the beginning is worded, it made me want to go on and read more. The idea is interesting, and the way you wrote it is good. I like this a lot. :)